philosophy

Ever heard of a great one liner from Bhagavadgita that covers the entirity of the spirituality or philosophy

"Ekamshena sthito jagath"
(verse 42;chapter10)

The single 'fragment of Him' that expanded/manifested in to this universe.[THAT which is basically 'single' and evolved in to this whole universe-'slight of the self or it's single fragment']

Yes,this single line is more than enough,if understood clearly,to get truly enlightened.Leave the entire spiritual/philosophical stuff available in the world.

It's like you need to know nothing else if you have understood the depth of this one liner.

Yes,it's true and my affirmation comes with a proof.

Here I am going to talk about a forgotten ancient science(truly the real gateway for 'true realization') which has been unknown to the world yet.

This science is NOT some thing usual 'visible thing' related but purely it's about the 'invisible'!

It's a 'phenomenon' that needs to be tested,understood,experienced practically and confirmed by both the sides/polarities- the 'present' spirituality and modern science alike.

All my effort is to give a divine,blissful and yogic 'instant practical experience' of the Absolute Truth 'hidden' in this Krishna's one liner with the help of my discovered science of mind and let ALL know 'practically' who exactly was Krishna so that ALL get all their age old 'doubts' cleared at once!

Not just that even what exactly the 'TRUE MEANING' of '' of Jesus(Kingdom of God) or any fundamental sacred statement made by any prophet of any religion will be crystal clear in an instant!

It's the science that makes one and all know all about the 'body consciousness' and 'soul consciousness' and the reality of their existence,their difference,oneness,individual and combined importance and connection or relationship and also their 'effects' not through the same scripture way teaching but through a simple and harmless practical approach.One can instantly find it for himself/herself and stand truly realized at once.

This ancient science is basically the science of concentration.

It's the science of mind and it's various yogic states and it's the science that purifies the mind instantly.

The 'Science of mind or some thing higher' of what I am talking about is a forgotten spiritual science unavailable or inaccessible to any human on this planet except as a kind of a little intuitive perception.

This ancient science of mind/self is the science of sciences.

Because it's what is usually called

'Brahma Vidya/gyan'or 'Paramatmatma Gyan'(knowledge of the self)

There is no other knowledge superior to Paramatmama Gyan.

It is 'yoga of yogas' or "Parama Yoga' in essence.(Real meditation or real yoga(Parama-yoga) means 'connecting 'Jivatma'(indivisual soul) with 'Paramatma'(super soul)

It's that 'parama-yoga' that can 'unblock' or unlock' your 'locked consciousness'!

It's that Eternal Bliss that alone makes one overcome doubt,fear,tension,anxiety,uncertainty and all kinds of negativity and teaches as to how to be truly fearless(NOT arrogant..because arrogance is a kind of 'borrowed fearlessness' ).

My 24 years of meditation and yogic efforts could unearth this science back in this age for the benefit of all.

It's the science with which 'motion'(be it any kind) can be explored in it's entirity.

It's the ancient science that explains all the different yogic states of human mind which stands behind the whole multiplicity and diversity of human nature.

As you know every thing is in motion like the universe,stars,planets,ourselves and what not.

The very metabolism in any living body is motion.

Every thing is subject to 'change(motion)'.

The motion of this very universe is a great spiritual feat!

“ALL THIS, WHATEVER MOVES IN THIS MOVING WORLD,IS ENVELOPED BY GOD”

(Isavasyam idam sarvam yat kinya jagatyam jagatam------ISAVASYA UPANISHAD. )

Every thing is in motion and motion is everything that needs to be understood.If the ABSOLUTE TRUTH about motion(the 'inner' law of motion) is known there is nothing left to be known and hence motion has been the very subject of the 'non ending' debate in philosophy,spirituality and science.

All the religions and modern science talk a lot about it,though they could never reveal the Absolute Truth yet.

It's because modern science/materialism believes and advocates that there is no a thing like 'absolute truth' but this ancient science proves the fact that there exists an 'Absolute Truth' with regard to motion it self. My effort has been a meditative exploration in to the concrete evidence of Absolute Truth and its working in the 'inner  unknown dynamics' of motion-some thing that AUTHENTICALLY contradicts the 'mechanical' explanation offered by modern science

that gave man destructive atomic/nuclear bomb to create fear/terror(out of his own fear) and hence my mission to provide man with an equally powerful but constructive yogic 'true spiritual knowledge drop' to become free from fear and become truly enlightened!

 The Absolute Truth is known only if the 'inner Divine/spiritual Law of Motion' is known.

Motion and Absolute Truth are inseparable.

My whole passion has been-to give the world('torn' in the name of religion,race,cast,creed etc.,) an 'instant practical experience' of the Absolute Truth that is theoretically clear from the age old (but almost forgotten) another one liner.

"Purnamadi purnamidam"
(THAT is whole and THIS is also whole)

And obviously, in the last analysis,the 'controlled motion' of any thing (including our body and mental processes -The very controlled metabolism that causes our 'holistic well being' is the result of a Real Yoga.

And 'uncontrolled motion' causes disease(bodily or social).

The entire spirituality or the secret of life and of the very universe becomes crystal clear if the REAL meaning of this 'one line of Gita'(you can leave aside the whole of the rest of of the spiritual stuff) is 'experienced' personally.

The negative ego disappears instantly as soon as one experiences this 'ekamsam-and disappearance of the negative ego is the true enlightenment.

I said 'experienced practically' NOT just 'understood',please note.And I am here to give that Blissful Experience to all the genuine seekers.

That is what the meaning of Krishna's words:"Mere study of scriptures/sacred books can not make one realize/reach Me"(That might take one to just the 'near truth' though)

Because it's THAT upon whose knowledge(concrete) alone one needs to know nothing else!

That is to say-One who knows /experiences (concretely) this 'yogic mental state' ('ekamsam of Gita) knows ALL and is under total bliss instantly!

And hence the Rig Vedic dictum-'

'Sat ekam.Vipra bahudha vadanti'

(TRUTH is ONE but the people call or take it by by many names)

Just a one time one minute simple initiation(by imparting Divine knowledge) would be enough to have that eternal blissful experience consciously.

This is like a therapy of 'spiritual drops' that can make one instantly and truly awakened.

A 'common drop' for all the seekers in general to know the Truth and to feel the blissful effect consciously and a 'particular drop' for an ambitious 'player-yodha'(player-warrior)!

This is like a medicine of pure 'spiritual drops' meant to produce real,fearless and brave 'jivan muktas'(enlightened and successful souls even while living)-true representatives or progenitors for the coming New Age!

Just a one time one drop therapy to awaken the very consciousness in to new spiritual dimensions of the Divine blissful state!

And these yogic mental states are not like some thing 'neuro-biological change' or some other 'kriya techniques' by mere 'touch' or 'mantra' or 'miracle' as claimed by so-called commercialized dubious spiritual organization(s)/gurus of the present times.

Better be an atheist than to fall for these fake 'miracle' oriented gimmicks of the unscrupulous people who think them to be divine by virtue of mere knowledge of sacred books.

These yogic states are in no way the physical brain related but purely the very consciousness related and can be experienced personally (with immediate verification too)by one and all after being made aware of the concerned form of sacred Divine Knowledge associated with a particular state of mind that can make any one stand truly enlightened immediately.

Only Parama Yoga can make one unite/realize concretely with God(yog means 'union' with God)

It's unlike ALL other yoga forms in vogue which are either commercialized or incomplete as they have been mostly reduced to mere 'fitness programs' i.e meant to attain only 'body consciousness' and not any thing higher or the 'highest'.

This ancient science can bridge the gulf between modern science and spirituality/body and mind/idealism and materialism....the list is very long.

Because both Religion and Modern Science have already reached 'a kind of saturation'...they have come,after a long, laudable advancement, to a 'grinding halt' and reached a 'dead end' from where they can not move further.

Modern science halted as it has been unable to find what the 'unified field' is and Religions have taught the world ALL and in ALL ways that it can.

The 'dream' of modern science and spirituality is,in fact one and the same-a common dream!

The divine science what I am talking about describes all the various yogic states of mind which have been the cause of the diversity/multiplicity and the 'ekamsham' or 'fragment'(primary mental state) is the 'Absolute Truth' while all other forms are it's manifestations.

It's the ORIGINAL(first) Divine Missile(known to Krishna alone and hence it's His mind/mental weapon)

It's THAT which triggers motion of a ball(terrestial/celestial) or ANY THING and it's THAT without which NO motion of any kind would be possible![In this sense,without THAT this world/body/prakriti/Nature is a mere motion less' dead thing' in fact,non existent and hence the division of 'prakriti' and 'purusha' in the scriptures.]

Basically it's a thing of mere 'Thought Energy' but it's THAT which is the most elusive and the very missing thing in both philosophy,religion and science.

Scientifically speaking,it's the 'substratum'-BASE-the very 'primal cause'-'premordial' thing-the 'primal point'(singularity) of Big Bang Theory' and it's the very 'Graviton' of 'unified field'(Einstein's dream) of modern physical science.This science has the answer to the age old question of 'aether'(akasha-the fifth element)!

It means it's THAT which is the very unseen 'carrier' of force.[As per the current understanding of physics goes,forces(ex: gravitation) can not transmit directly between two objects without an intermediary entity called 'fields 'i.e NO 'physical reality' exists without THAT]

This knowledge instantly explains the unsolved riddle of modern science-dual nature (particle/wave) of light.

And biologically,it let's us know how and why our DNA is able to emit photons(light) and this light is what is called ojas/tejas.(pure energy)

The modern physical science or the empirical science primarily started out of it's peculiar curiosity called 'measuring attitude'(that is why the basic physics lesson is always titled 'measurement' dealing in 'how much'/'how long') and after it's so called huge success with it's experiment had to reach it's dead end(inability to find the unified field).

In fact,this very 'measuring attitude'(unlimited) has been one of the causes of all the misery or the fall.

There is one cause for the misery/conflict/confusion/intense suffering in the world because of a plain truth that man never knew the inner law of motion.

He just ignored it(of course,out of ignorance and helplessness too) and discovered the external laws of motion and built,based on these laws alone, a huge 'glassy /plastic monument' what we call modern science(modernity in general).

Even spirituality got degraded(divisions-sub divisions, emergence of many religions,false gurus,fanaticism etc.,) as the so called 'sacred book(interpolated/manipulated through time) knowledge' alone couldn't make him reach the Ultimate Truth -the inner law of motion.

Ignorance(due to mind pollution/confusion) on the side of spirituality led to religious dogmas and religious dogmas caused the growth of science and even 'scientific dogma' too.

With my discovered science Krishna's words(with a smile)would become(to suit the present age):

"I am the gravity and the graviton too!

'I am the DNA and I am the gene!

I am the matter and I am the energy!

Because I am the 'fermion' and I am the 'boson'!!!

(in modern science fermion is the basic particle of matter and boson is that of energy)

I am the dark matter and I am the dark energy too!

And what is there that is not me?'

I am the greatest modern biologist(Brahma) who has been the primal cause of this ever expanding universe which is nothing but a seemingly real(illusional) etherial(mayic) body that came in to existence(big bang) with the union of just my 'two (male and female) fragments(of ekamsham)' done using the most modern(long back in the ancient times) scientific technique of 'yogic external fertilization' and I am the Vishnu when I keep pervading(in the form of ekamsham) in to this universe as a whole and I will be Maheshwara when I destroy it.ALL things in this whole universe must take birth and rebirth in 'maya' and dissolve/disintegrate in to 'maya' again and finally the universe it self disintegrates to become the single fragment(ekamsham) again !!!

One can know me through neither advaitam nor dvaitam which delve in to only jivatman and atman with no clue to 'paramatman'!
The right path is 'thratam'! 

To give a single word substitute,
THRAITAM
 is the true meaning of 
the verse10.8 of Gita
( 'Maya adyakshena Prakruti suyate sacharacharam!Hetuna anena Kaunteya! Jagadviparivartate!-

This material nature (Prakruti) is producing all moving and unmoving beings, which is

under my presidency. This world works by this reason)') 


The essence and message of Gita in general is:
"I am your greatest Grandfather and Grand mother as well!Look at me!And NO WAY out!" 
 

Such would be the words of Lord Krishna in the modern context!
 

And this discovery should result in

The End of Philosophy it self!

Yes,philosophy should end.
Like every thing does....
No exception.
It's a necessity.
Every thing(nothing excluded) is necessiated.
Multiplicity
A big question mark
Our original problem....
The cause of man's 'wild goose chase'!
Is but a temporal necessity/desire as some think.
And 'one' became 'many'.
A big,long gradual process.
Evolution/divergence did we call it.
It's but 'Motion' forward.
Ages followed....
Now it's no more evolution
'Motion' back ward...automated.
It's devolution/convergence.
A 'fall',in appearance,though
Big,long gradual process again
Of 'many' becoming 'one'.
All-NOT to exclude any thing-
That happens,happened and happening(no regrets)
Is but a part of the process.
Why do you think Krishna gave the hint-
"Ekamshena sthito jagath."
A single fragment turning in to this world....
He means by it.
A single 'strand' becoming two,
The combination...
And every thing followed.
Just think what that single strand could be?
Meditate...find it out,as I did.
One can know how simple
Absolute Truth is!
How 'ignorant' have we been!
And you stand truly enlightened.
No other way....
The 'chase' of philosophy,modern science has been the same...
Even that of spirituality too.

And that is the power of 'ekamsham'(fragment)!

Did you know why there is so much misery,pain,uncertainty,injustice.....it's ignorance and the cause of ignorance,in the last analysis,is MIND POLLUTION OR 'LOCKED CONSCIOUSNESS'(clouded/mayic/rusted/impure corrupt mind) and the 'blockage/locking''is always dependent or proportional to the element of 'fear/ego/ negativity' associated with it!NO human being,irrespective of learned or not,is an exception to this!Unlocking(true realization) is removing this 'dirt'(becoming really fearless/free) either bit by bit or altogether at a time where the latter is possible with only the 'divine spiritual drop' in a practical way!

Some try to find this fearlessness/freedom in wealth,power,scholarship etc., but they soon find it 'false/psuedo fearlessness/freedo

And this mind pollution/locked consciousness is the mother of all 'other pollutions' including 'social pollution' has been the cause of ALL the misery in this present or the previous ages in accordance with the percentage of the 'cloudy' part of the mind.

A clouded mind begets devilish petty mindedness(sankuchita mano bhava) as opposed to divine 'broadmindedness' and this very petty mindedness has been the root cause of all the ills and misery.

But again high mind pollution is an unavoidable characteristic of this age of Kali-Kali yuga.

This world/society is/has been like a dirty white towel.
(what was a fresh spot less white towel in the beginning and the dirt being accumulated through time...because of 'Anrta' replacing 'Rta' slowly as the time passed by)

Many trials by many hands of washing/wrenching it have been of no use.

It still remains the same or still dirtier,may be with an exception of some patch like regions of whiteness.

It already reached almost an 'irreparable' state

There seems to be no way out except replacing the old one with a new one through some peaceful and pure spiritual kind of transformation .

But as long as there is no real and right solution,there will be NO change in the status quo of the world.

Many kinds of solutions(religions/scientific/political theories/all 'isms') have been tried so far but couldn't make this world a better place as expected.

We had many great souls(the great persons begotten by the ever pregnant TIME) like Buddha,Mahavira,Shankara,Ramanuja,Swami Dayananda,Maharshi Ramana,Ramakrishna Paramhamsa,Vivekananda,Nanak, Jesus Christ, Mohammed and many more who were born with a noble cause .,..but unfortunately,despite the sincere efforts of all these great souls, the world is still not a better place yet.
Unless the clouded mind or mind pollution goes there will not be any real change.

And even the time is ripe enough for this to happen.

Now that all the solutions having been tried with,there must be a way out as a last resort.

Hence my yogic missionary efforts to unearth this unique,ancient and Divine Science and to make people know what their 'Real Nature' is and why we are here on this planet by enabling them to make a distinct differentiation between the true natures of 'physical' and nonphysical' realms.

The goal for humanity is acquisition of a 'pure mind' so that true enlightenment descends on it's own and this is possible only through practical experience/understanding of what that 'ekamsham' of Gita is.

Any way,first the superficial 'rust' should go and hopefully this divine science('ekamsham' of Gita/the primary yogic mental state) is the 'elixir'.

So,to conclude, ALL what has been happening is the 'out put' of 'blocked/locked consciousness,irrespective of what field it is, and it is the right time to get that consciousness unlocked so that non selfish and non egoistic 'righteous thinking' follows!

My mission is to let ALL know what their TRUE NATURE is and what exactly they need(apart from bread and butter) in their life in this mundane seemingly real world which is,in the final analysis,nothing but a 'make-believe program' in a 'temporary make-shift arrangement' and that all the differences like religious,political,economic,regional,racial,cast,creed etc.must go.....

'vasudaika kutumbam'
(world as a family)/'sarvejana sukhino bhavantu'
(Let ALL people be happy and prosperous)

Today the world needs 'practcal Geeta' instead of theory which works no more in this age and hence my effort.

THE PRACTICAL GITA

Who ever follows and adopts(without doubt)the'COSMIC LAW'-THRAITAM (either by intuition or through knowledge) is the champion,be it sport or life!
           The SAME law applies ANY WHERE! 

Knowledge of Thraitam makes one realize, practically how and why to be truly 'independent' by being 'dependent'(going round Him) on Him ALONE!        

 The whole secret lies in Thraitam! 

            It IS the Absolute Truth...meant for humans to   cultivate it(either through intuition or through knowledge) where as this is an 'automated system' present in all other living and non living beings!

Those who know this truth,no other truth is left for them to know! 

Because it's the Vedic 'Rta'(the opposite of Anruta-"I am Rta"-Gita ;" Rtam satyam vijnani- true knowledge is knowing the Truth that is Rta "-Rig Veda 1-75- 5)

And it's the SOMA too!

 'Rta' being replaced by'Anrta'(the graded 'fall'/dilution/devolution-the very 'thraita' is replaced by 'pretha') is the cause of 'darkness'/'clouded mind' and the consequent byproduct-delusion,which in turn, causes misery!
 
My job-finding a 'practical way' to differentiate between Rta and Anrta-is done!

Now it's up to every one to test it practically and find it out! 

After Satya yuga,we have been living in TIME where the THRAITAM has been 'forgotten' and slowly 'changed'/'assumed' (out of 'forgetfulness'/ignorance) in to 'PRETAM(devil/satan)' and in the present times this misconception is well established and hence the present divided status of the world!

Actually,I feel I have a purposeful plan(to tell the world in what way carrom,billiards like sport is Divine  and yogic....and that these players are exhibiting (without their actual knowledge)nothing but  to know the divinity or true essence of all religions or true enlightenment,one must 'practically' become either Krishna or Arjuna(the only eternal embodiments of fearlessness)...the only way out in the present age where theories DO NOT serve any purpose....it's time to throw all theory..dogma ,belief systems  and more importantly the most interpolated versions of all the spiritual/religious stuff in the world aside...the way is to adopt their special,blissful and firm minds[that involve the essence of true spirituality which is the only and the very natural part and parcel/ingredient of everything - Thraitam(triality)]and see what exactly controls the very 'motion' of every thing....what exactly works as undercurrent in the very controlled 'motion' of every thing...what exactly gives that control....what exactly is bliss/beauty and the very meaning of life....the true spiritual essence is  'Thraitam' which is the very natural part and parcel/ingredient  of EVERY THING in the universe -which alone is the whole essence of Gita and the 'true message' conveyed by Krishna's words:"I am the target/goal!"and 'I am the generating seed of all existences. There is no being — moving or nonmoving — that can exist without Me.' ).....and  the true knowledge-significance of Thraitam-that the knowledge of  Thraitam is  the only source of bliss and it's ignorance is the source of all kinds of misery and finally coming to know that ALL that exists in this universe is Thraitam and nothing else!-Thus the true knowledge descends 'instantly' which alone can make one free from this religious/spiritual mess.Now in this age it's every human being's  necessity to know and adopt the simple secret of those two almost equal minds and usher in the New Age. and this discovery could help people(irrespective of creed,nationality,gender etc.,) get the non intuitive knowledge of a simple pre shot routine for practice which helps them become blissful(there by becoming either Krishna or Arjuna whose minds alone can usher in the New Age-because they alone know how to have the most ideal 'fear proof' firm minds!) and free from doubt/tension/anxiety like ALL negative attributes.

Also one can find or realize that the SAME rule(what can be called the unavoidable 'eternal principle' or 'the inner universal law of motion'-in fact, a forgotten 'COSMIC RULE-the only deciding factor of EVERY THING!'and it's ALL that exists and all the other stuff is just an ignorance in different forms)that applies to one's real life scenario too....what we call 'experience'(any kind) in life is always either a 'concord'(happiness/bliss/real success with satisfaction) or a 'discord'(misery/fake success without satisfaction) kind...exactly like the experience we get when we succeed(concord) or fail(discord) in shot making! With the knowledge(of that secret 'inner universal law of motion) I was talking about one comes to know why of this concord and discord experience instantly and thus gets 'truly enlightened'!

(As a token of proof I would like to introduce two persons of my acquaintance with the same 'shot routine'....serious/ardent followers of the same 'Thraitam'...seems like 'a teacher and student'-(the student who learnt and practised his archery skill before his Guru's statue) ...the relation carried over to this birth...even now the student unable to achieve success because of 'weak thumb',though exceptionally skilled with more intuitive perception than the teacher in the present birth!....my keen observation of this was one of the strong factors of motivation for my  24 yr long meditative search....Hope no one expects any more proof than this......  

In fact,it's the 'fear of the unknown' that has been haunting every human in every field....and the fear(that exists in the form of doubt,confusion,misconception,indecision,pressure etc.,) disappears only when the 'unknown' becomes 'known'...no other way out despite there being many systems/ways which can take one only 'nearer' to that 'unknown' in the form of various theories,assumptions,conceptualizations and many kinds of practices that might help to have more feel/perception but 'feel' is 'feel' and one becomes really 'free' only when 'what' of that 'feel' is known...

Even these skill sports are no exception...it's the SAME problem here....players keep 'practicing' a lot to enhance their 'feel' of shot making...to go more and more  nearer to that-the SAME 'unknown' and a few emerge as champions after having acquired greater 'feel'!

And it's where we see more and more constant struggle of the players in the form of 'practice' to acquire more 'feel'....and hence it's the the only and the most ideal field to really know what exactly that thing of 'unknown'  is and hence my efforts(my life long constant hatred and 'war' against 'fear'-the useless and the most unwanted 'negative fear' not the useful 'positive fear'- and it's by products) in this area.


In the beginning ALL were  without any differentiation like Rakshasas(demons)/Devas(demi gods)as they all were truly 'realized souls'!
They knew their true nature(Thraitam-)!A period of perfect 'unity in diversity'!Every thing went well for a period of time.....
Forgetfulness(of thraitam) through time became the cause of 'divisions'!
Divisions gave rise to further divisions with respect to every thing and a process of natural 'reduction' followed!'
Unity in diversity' gets diluted in a gradation...hence the yugas(cycles of Time)....
Now it's again the time for the change....the present Kali yuga to the next Satya yuga.


And it's high time for all-carrom,snooker,archery like sports persons and all the truly religious people including ISKCON  like Krishna conscious people (who just promote 'action less' 'nama sankeertan') to realize  the importance of 'action' (how to adopt and follow Thraitam-that ALONE ensures true paramatma pradaksina/going round God!') too and promote these skill sports so that 'true champions' emerge to usher in the New Age!

All the players of skill sports are in a way 'true spiritual artists!' with variations in their artistic skills and I am a 'true spiritual scientist!'

I am ready to give the world the 'shot routines' of two persons like the two gaints-Arjuna and Karna so that every one can test them(to know the skills and strengths of the minds of those two gaints) and follow any one of them and realize the 'true nature' of every thing and every being! 


..................and finally peace descends on Earth with the dawn of a 'New Age'-an age 'where the mind is without fear'(Gitanjali of Tagore) and a better state than the dream of Karl Marx and of my 'elder brother'(Indian Marx)) as ALL will be in a state of of being well 'established' in their very 'selves/souls 'requiring NO other knowledge(all champions' society)and 'where there is no room for misery of any kind where people with completely 'unlocked consciousness' only are seen!

May be this might take another 24 years i.e at least by 2036!

Let's hope and strive peacefully for this to happen like a natural event as in the ever cycling TIME-WHEEL!

About me&and my research:

My meditative research[a self initiated and purposeful born out of my perception of a strong feel of exceptional skill in producing a spin shot,besides a plain one,-basically a response to a statement made(that too at a time when my shot making calibre was exceptionally grand)by my Guru:'I'll not accept your aiming even if you become a national champion!']at last,reveals the plain truth about aiming and success of a shot.

After I came to a place to settle down as a private teacher,there(where I happened to live for about 25 yrs pursuing my 'livelihood'/family of five and my newly formed passion.....)I came in contact with many 'archers in disguise' and I was passionately DRAWN in to the subject of archery through carrom,of course.

I happened to have observed many a people/player playing with ease and champion like and also many who happened to 'struggle'(degree of struggle varies)...while I felt 'very happy' with the first kind(specially person like Dhritarastra,with lots of 'lung' and 'fist' power,playing with great ease and control like that of Sullivan in snooker) it's always the second type who bothered me a lot and whose 'struggle' while playing always has been my subject of enquiry...I have seen my Guru(who always appeared like Parasurama to me),at times,'struggling' despite his 'axing' like and' always undettered'shot making ablity...a person (by their nature/disposition)like Dharmaja struggling a lot(because of which he seems to be the most frustrated soul on the earth)...a person like Arjuna too(despite his complete knowledge of the strategy of the game and despite having an unparalelled 'fearless' mind too)..and persons like Karna,Ashwathama,Abhimanyu....and even a gaint like Bhishma struggling at times...a person like Duryodhan seemed far better but with abnormally excessive enthusiasm...and another gaint like Bheema too,despite his 'strongest routine'(yes,if i give that simple and the strongest routine to any one it's immediately testable) to unparallelled ability to make a successful shot ALWAYS and in ALL situations including odd positions,struggling..... whose and mainly the 'duo'-a teacher and student like(Dronacharya&Ekalavya) who happen to share the SAME shot routine...but the teacher,though expert with respect to all things of the game,again 'struggling' a lot and the student,equally expert but with only one defect(failing only at  'thumb' shots(might be due to 'weak thumb') and who is near invincible otherwise........  why these people are struggling,when I am NOT afraid/unsure of any possible shot? was my subject of thinking.
Specially a few persons whose struggle was beyond limits...beyond reason to the extent of not even able to 'release/deliver' the shot(having become abnormally stiff)  with all the unwanted things in the mind like doubt,fear,presuure,tension,check,recheck,affirmation,reaffirmation etc.,and my question was that why it's not happening in my case...I used to feel the difference immediately...they are not 'doing something' or feel that 'what' they have done is not enough to be assured of the success of the shot...and finally delivering the shot at the 'wrong time'-when 'what' they did mentally is no more on their mind due to unwanted thoughts.....I knew,intuitively still though,the 'right time' to deliver the shot and i knew(strong intuition only again) even what I was 'doing mentally'... I used to feel the exact difference(missing of a very very simple but vital thing) when the other person missed a shot....even I used to know whether the opponent's shot would be a success or not even before the shot delivery.Well,I couldn't explain it to him/her(though I used test the opponent's intuitive shot routine(even in it's spin mode too) myself with ease... but i couldn't do any thing except giving an irresistible and assuredly not a 'malign' one...a small laugh(because I knew they missed that 'some thing')...and  i had to some times suppress that small laugh forcibly to avoid his/her being noticed...some times this made me even losing my own 'control' over shot making and even losing the match too which never bothered me,of course...not just that,I was so 'sensitive' that I used to start getting a kind of tense(being on winning side though) when I observed theirs...i always tried to exhibit a 'fair' play which is free from 'direct defense' and from winning or losing attitudes) as my knowledge was also intuition based..may be stronger intuition or intuition with a 'feel of it's knowledge'-a very very simple but vital thing-...I decided to sort it out by turning that 'intuitive knowledge' in to 'concrete real knowledge' and my meditative search began thus.These are just some of many initial things of my efforts-my getting introduced to the game of carrom and my exceptional skills developed in a short period of time and my keen observations...Later,in the process of journey(which has been a very hard one...almost a 'wild goose chase') of my research I could successfully apply the same routines on a billiard/snooker table with the same results.It was,even in my case,a strong perception yet...no real concrete knowledge.I was always brooding over my inability to express it and tell them what exactly went wrong/right in either in miss/success....Thus,for the sake of these persons of exceptional minds of my acquaintance in the sport of carrom,I had to find their routines and in the process I happened to find so many other routines including those of Sullivan,Murphy etc in snooker.,I just gave you the gist...I do not want to bother you with lots of 'laundry work'(meditative though) and and not to speak of it's effects on my personal/family  for about 24 yrs and that's all I can give in words...and there is much to tell all about the 'connections'.. characteristics of these persons...observations.